Tuesday, February 25, 2020

They started being mean to me more since posting more here.
People outside are whining admitting things about something.
Some people keep acting like I'm "actually" in trouble at age 33 like I really did something when I'm mistreated and didn't.
I keep getting my life ruined like I did something.
They keep acting like I did something,
They keep ruining my life each time they say something.
They keep acting like I did something when I didn't and making more trouble happen and getting mad at me.
I heard a car still talking about my dad's younger sister.  I didn't post I had a sentimental dream about my mom who died about a year ago.  They seemed to say Mardi Gras was about replacing my mom with my dad's younger sister.  They've been doing that with my dad's cousin, too, who's also several years older than my mom and even suggesting she replaces my relationship with an older lady I like.  They even suggested this was the doing of the older lady I like and that they pressured her.
My dad keeps adding more important problems with relating with an older lady I like.

They won't stop.

My dad is sitting there tackily like he is playing around with his scissors cutting up one of my egg sacks I thought like was female on the right.
I got that my dad because he was upset yesterday I kept thinking no when he symbolically said I would not meet an older lady I like ... that he set it so when I meet an older lady I like he has put something in the way.

I was just out and he went on his list of things to say symbolically.

They're grooving like there's an unspoken reason, like a game, an unfair game.
I woke up to use the bathroom, and my dad came out and telepathically said only his younger sister will get to meet an older lady I like etc. and maybe like I did something the older lady said this way.  Well, it's a big deal.
They keep acting like I can't have a relationship with an older lady I like because I was interested in talking about her daughter but not naming her and not in a bad way.
Every time they don't have to do something act like they're punishing me, for no good reason.

I walk around and think about it at some level I feel unfeeling but in an unpleasant way and a ghostly presence that my dad put there like his hand on my private with a long arm going around.

Feud

My dad was moving around making noises and feeling things, 2 times recently.  He made my eyes feel different and pointed out my private and made it feel molested and the rest of me unfeeling, and it popped up when I woke up in bed, I was hot sweaty and felt it hanging in there.

His younger sister recently said, "You won't go on," treating me like I'm worthless, like this was all that to her.

Supposedly, I'm in trouble and not having an okay time for some reason and they are connecting it to someone else, like all this is because what I'm posted about them without naming them because there's nothing wrong with what I said.  They seem to be finding it suggestive, though..  I tried editing it again, too.

They keep having people who are not as competent manipulate my life by being monitored in private, and it might be simple, they're jealous of me, and I realized that and discouraged it.  They are using someone specific, doing it with an attitude..  It's where they are mean to me and no one ever realizes it's wrong exactly because they just do it gradually and then act like nothing happened after they keep getting worse.  It's rather grotesque.

So, my dad was upset recently, one reason was because I kept saying no after he said an older lady I like might have really said I would be turned off like Britney Spears seems for no good reason.. then said I never met her sarcastically and said I couldn't.  I just kept thinking, "No," and he wouldn't stop and acted like I did something and then affected how I felt like I said at the beginning of this post.